This is dedicated to the memory of a very special love.​

You became a void. An empty canyon that I could no longer feel beneath my feet.

I smelled you and I cried during my walks to lunch.

Sweeter fragrance than the sun,

Air I loved to breathe.

Your movements like silk.

I saw the sun while you saw the moon.

One leg out, both arms reaching

for a good night’s rest.

Your hair blazed through the scene;

a steady, flowing river.

I squinted to see more until my eyes burned with salt.

You had me slumped with the haze of these sensations,

remembering the happiness constantly for months.

I held our memories

refusing to relax my grip.

Your hand was my only comfort;

my one compass.

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I practiced saying goodbye.

I can't remember any time passing between our moments and then, and yet I couldn’t fit the experience onto a page.

I wanted to go back to our temporary homes just for fun.

One night each.

We would sit and stare at each other after a home-cooked meal.

Glue the missing time back together.

I wondered every day how you were; What you were doing.

I wished I could hear your voice; listen to you breathe.

I wondered and wondered and hoped for all of your happiest dreams to come to you.

I loved you each day. And I hoped for you to find a new life with better love and deeper peace.

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This is dedicated to you and all the love you gifted.

The world knows a very special, gentle peace with you in it.

Goodbye Saemi.